Warning! This is a weight loss blog not a cupcake blog.

I gained 100 pounds and now I'm going to lose it...

This ticker thingy is kind of depressing but it'll get better.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Oh No I Didn't!

Oh dear lord! I started a blog. A freaking blog. About weight loss no less. It's rather humilating but I can rest comfortably in the knowledge that I agonized over the decision. Oh yes! Agony people Ag-o-ny. There! Saving face protocol initiated... Oh what does it matter. Here's the story...

I've gained 100 lbs since 2004. Sucks to be me! Total humilation. I'm hiding out from all my former classmates, relatives, boys... I have a smokin' hot picture on my Facebook account but in real life... Yikes! I've avoided parties, reunions, weddings, receptions, funerals, church. It's gotten to the point where my peeps think I'm either locked up, forcibly held in Level 4 Isolation Containment, or royally pissed off at them. Thank the heavens above that the boy...THE BOY... is on the other side of the planet do-gooding. Let's just hope his philanthropic nature extends to girls who've "let themselves go". Urg! Have I let myself go?

I ain't an internal motivation kinda girl. Believe you me it's taken something extreme to bring me to this point. The point of starting a blog. A weightloss blog. Dear lord...

Top Reasons To Finally Lose Weight

5. My mom bought me a size 4x t-shirt as a gift.

4. I can't wear any of my pants sporting an actual non-elastic waistband.

3. My closet that once upon a time spilled out into the guest room now holds a grand total of three, count 'em, three outfits. Oh and a single black stretchy skirt.

2. A few days ago I got out of the shower and realizing my clothes were still drying went looking for a sheet to wear. Not joking people.

1. And finally... After looking at my drivers license in order to verify my signature a checkout girl said, "oh god what happened to you" while affecting a look of geniune pity. True story.

Yeah, I'll actually get on a scale tomorrow. I'll let ya know how that goes... I like the sense of accomplishment I just got from actually starting a blog. I'm going to rest on my laurels for a bit while I put effort into finding some recipes featuring real, honest-to-goodness food.


  1. with karma like that the checkout girl is gonna get hit by a bus.

    I agree about the one cupcake at a time war plan, little things will make a huge difference when you start out. Power to you!

  2. Congrats on taking that first step. You're worth it. Everyone has a "before" part of their journey. Be proud that you're embracing yours and move forward. Sistah-powah!! :) Hugs, Kirsten

  3. Welcome to the journey of a lifetime. Congrats on the epiphany that brought you here! That is the biggest and actually one of the most difficult parts of this journey.

    You can do it!!!!!!! And there are some great people around online that will be with you ever step of the way cheering and encouraging!

  4. Yes, definitely check out my blog. I've got 4 plus years of this journey on there. The ups and the downs. I try to be brutally honest with what I'm going through and how things are going.

    The fears WILL fade.....but I won't lie, other fears will crop up. This journey is also one of finding yourself. Because if you are anything like me....I had lost myself when I was at my highest weight (315....I'm 5'8"). The fat choked out my personality and everything that made me Me. As I lost the weight, my personality could REALLY shine! But allowing that personality to shine after years of being hidden....scary, but SOOOOO well worth it!

    Believe in yourself!!!!

  5. Hi cc...Welcome to the rest of forever. Great decision, you know it had to come but making it is a great start on the rest.

    Tips for getting started?

    *Blog - blog - yet more blog!
    *Track - every single little itsy bitsy bit before you eat it - what point after the deed is done.
    * Drink -- 8 glasses of fluid a day - I am really good at that bit - NOT!
    *Set yourself some goals - long term, medium term, and 'it starts now'

    The blog bit is good - in the first few days - blog to within an inch of your life if it helps you get a solid few days start. And dont fret -- even you will get to like it...blogging that is lol. If I can help at all - just holler.

  6. Your starting weight is very close to mine (256). You can do this - if I can, anybody can. Glad you found the wonderful world of weight-loss blogs and you started your own. I'm rooting for you!

  7. the first step feels like a big one, but after that it's just lots of baby steps to a new life...I lost 30 plus pounds about 6 years ago and it wasn't through anything crazy, it was small consistent steps

  8. Congrats on talking the first step!! Your awesome and I'm excited to follow your journey! Good Luck :) I started my journey 120 over weight and if I did it so can you :)

  9. Great job on getting started with a blog! I'm looking forward to following along with you. You can do it!!!

  10. CC- Thanks for stopping by my blog.

    You've taken the first step. You acknowledged the need for change and are ready to do something.

    Just take it one baby step at a time. A year ago I refused to diet, but started walking and cut one or two things out or down to smaller portions.

    You can and will do this. My advice is to take it a meal at at time, a day at a time and be ready to stick it out to the end. This is changing habits, not getting a quick fix plan.

    Check out Diane and www.fittothefinish.com. She has an amazing story and shares wisdom daily on her blog.

    I also can't believe the checkout girl. wow.

    Hang in there and keep in touch. :)

  11. Oh, and I truly think that you have to learn to love yourself no matter what...if you never lose another pound. Sounds hard to do (trust me), but it WILL lead you to greater change.

    Have a great week!

  12. Hi CC. You can do this..and you will do this! I'm here to cheer you on.

    My drivers license says 175..which was sort of silly when I weighed 253! Oh well!

    Take it one day at a time. Eat real food..with real nourishment. And...move yor body as much as is possible.

    Keep us posted!

  13. Thanks to all of you! I'm so grateful. Oh how I needed that encouragement. I was having a bit of a freak out moment. One of those "oh my gosh I went online and totally committed myself to this and what if I fail..." kinda moments.

    Looking up your blogs, reading your stories, reading your advice... This is what I've needed all along and I was just too ashamed to seek it out. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. From the bottom of my cupcake lovin' heart.

    (((Big Hugs)))

  14. Nice to come home isnt it? :)) Only over there -------------->> if you need anything.


  15. Congrats on starting the blog and taking that first step! That's a huge thing just admitting there is a problem! I would encourage you not to feel humiliated. Really. And congrats to you as you start to re-engage and start to really live your life! It's going to be worth all the hard work!